I know this is three times too many posts in one day, but after I wrote that poem he called. And I went just as surely as I always have. The idea of declining a request to hang out is absolutely absurd to me in so many ways because why would I miss the opportunity of seeing him? Of laughing with him? And laugh we did today. I don't believe I've ever laughed so much, or smiled so big in the past year let alone in two hours. Those two hours were distraction free and only us; no phones, no people, no obligations...just us.
I gave him a very hard time about the scratch marks on the sides of his back...
Apparently he got a back scratch from someone- a very likely story. So I played my jealous role and we laughed for minutes straight over my analyzation and observation of these ellegid "back scratch" marks. I told him it wouldn't hurt me if he slept with someone (which is so untrue) because after all, who am I? And what are we? So with that said, how could I possibly have any reason to be upset or mad? (Because I'm head over heels that's exactly how I could be DEVASTATED!)
I don't recall the last time I had so much fun though with him, all we do is laugh and joke. I never see him laugh like he does when he's with me. I watch him with other people and he doesn't laugh or smile half as good as he does when we are playing around. I love to make him smile and it's so easy to get him going. Knowing that I'm more of a polite and proper girl, he tries to make me seem crude and uncut because it's so incongrues. So it's cheap entertainment for him to tell me to yell out these horrible things and watch me blush as I try to sound serious while screaming, "Oh yes Baby F* me good" or something totally revolting along those lines. Oh my gosh we die before I can get to the F word and if I do get it out we are on the floor cause I sound so ridiculous.
I don't know what it is about him, but I'm so glad to have met him and experienced what I have with him. He's shown me a lot in two months, not only about intimate relationships, but about relationships in general. I've come to know myself a little bit better with him and can honestly say I am happy. I've never been able to say that I was truly happy unless I was in Washington living my days with the atmostphere I belong to. I've never been satisfied with Florida until I met Jason.
How sad my life really is to know that I won't be happy unless with a person who makes me feel that way...and most commonly it's temporary.