There Must Be Someplace Near That Only You & I Could Go...

Had a fabolous italian dinner tonight...Rhonda's treat to Alex and I. I honestly love how good her and Jeff always take care of me. I ofcourse had a chicken ceaser (what else would I get?) and the two of them got real italian food.

Rhonda spoke of taking me out to Montana to our condo to go skiing. I've never been but there is a three story condo right in the middle of a ski resort so how great would it be to spend a few days out there?? Ironically...she invited Alex.

That's in March/April! Don't misunderstand my confusion- it's great to have high hopes for the future with Alex and I but I don't want to push my luck with having him take off time months from now. And to be honest I don't know how and if he feels about her asking that. I'm probably looking far too deeply into the light invitation but still I don't know exactly what to think. It kinda reminds me of something that a SERIOUS couple would do...(I'd love to be serious but I doubt his intentions on that one) When Rhonda said that I was like, uh..seems like something an egaged couple would take part in- Just kinda weirded me out

EW! Rhonda fucking called him JEREMY. WHOA! How embrassing. Like Myles would always yell out the wrong guy's name when I was on the phone and I'd get into to trouble but this was way worse. The word touched my ears and I flinched then it hit my heart because Jeremy isn't in my life anymore and I hate comparisons.

Probably the one thing I won't ever understand about relationships is the change. Most go through a drastic change and each partner wonders, "where the fuck was the one I met a few months ago?" How can two people be so totally wrapped up in eachother suddenly go bad? I don't understand at all. I could see from the beginning each and every one of my future break-ups. When I met them, I saw it. (except dan- that was fucking out of left field) Each person I dated had some flaw or there was something in me that wasn't right so I knew it wouldn't last. With Alex...I don't see any of that. Sometimes I feel like it's too good to be true.

"Somethins Gotta Go Wrong Cause I'm Feelin Way Too Damn Good"

What a remarkable statement.