I Saw My Reflection In A Window- Didn't Recognize Myself

Here is the girl who previously posted her certainty and now remains as a walking contradiction. I'll beat myself up about it till I forget what pain is.

Though my conscious serves as the primary retribution, my imagination trails closely behind. I see horrible scenes that could bring my world crashing down upon me...and it's all because of a boy.

Things will be different this is a promise. Mind sets have certainly changed and view points have done a 180. I see relationships and love in a whole new perspective now that I realize the truth of my heart. If I can bear to hear the truth I speak of then I know I've learned a lesson and I know that I shall grow from this day forward.

I just have move on, I'm not a senior in high school anymore and I'm not the girl who used to be dependent on another. I don't need to hold on and use the past as an excuse...I'm done. We are both done and it took an interesting conversation to reach a mutual consensus, a hug to seal the deal, and a prayer for both of us.

I think the person that matters most knows too, He can see past lies and into the heart and soul...I'm not lying this time. I promise