Here I Go...So Dishonestly...Leave A Note...For You My Only One...

Well I didn't take any pictures of me and Alex! I'm so dumb- this I already know. But I forgot cause we were so busy and what not. I've yet to have a really good picture of the two of us.

Here is what I learned:
That Alex is far more different than I ever imagined, and it took one action to prove this true. I cried even harder when I realized what was going on with myself. Put it to you THIS way...I used to be heartless/cruel/GUILTLESS...but not anymore. I thought I could do whatever I wanted behind anyone's back without worrying about it. This isn't some relationship I can label "perfect" just because I want to. Nor is Alex just another guy to say, "Oh my gosh, no for real, he's the one". I just wish I knew then what I know now about the differences between infatuation/temptation and opportunity/love. If I knew how to decipher between the two I would not have written some of the things I wrote about Jason, or told my sister the things about Snipper or Gavin! Those can't be real and it's the most obvious thing to me now.

With Alex....its "Fragile As A Leaf In Autumn- Just Fallin' To The Ground...Without A Sound"
Mark my words on this one...I will never make a wrong decision or put myself in any compromising position that could lead to the termination of my present situation (I'm not saying that I always am, but I'm just stating a fact)