"Love Isn't That Hard To Find"

Are you fucking kidding me? Love is the most difficult thing I have ever searched in vain for. And if love is anything like the way I feel when your lips caress mine, or the feeling in my stomach that doesn't leave me until a good 5 minutes into our time-

I'll Never Wonder Agian.

And who says that I can't love someone after such short notice? Who even dares to tell me that love wasn't in my heart the morning after we met. Because it was not as strong as it is now, doesn't mean that there wasn't an intense inclination of something more than a crush.

But still I'm effortless in regards to poetry according to him. That doesn't mean anything...I never wrote of anything happy in my life unless for some assignment. Joyful poetry does nothing for me and gives no inspiration. Maybe the second I can write something good would be a sign about the way I feel...? Yeah, I think that's a crazy notion too...

I talked to my close friend from highschool. He was a year older than us, but his best friend was my girlfriend's boyfriend. We were a foursome for so long and everyone thought we'd get together. After all, we were one in the same.

Well-known (he was way more popular than me though)
LOUD
Goofy
Playful
CRAZY

The list goes on, we went to the gym together, dinner together, movies...you name it we did it. But we never kissed and we never held hands. It just wasn't like that for me...but he was in love and would have leaped at the opportunity for an "us". Anyways I was smitten with a loser from High Springs so my topic of conversation was that asshole and his was his ex-girlfriend. No matter how sad or upset I was...I ended up going home the happiest girl. I laughed for hours with him, and for me to say I smiled the whole time would be an understatement. So we never got together but I spoke with him today and he is so happy it's disgusting. He's been with him GF for well over a year now and our conversation went as followed:

S: Is my Dun Dun boy?

R: Is the girl I took to my senior prom???

S: Yes sir...how are you

::buncha bull shit then the topic of BF/GF::

R: I could never stay away from my girlfriend for too long, when she goes to college I'm going with her

S: That's great, I'm so happy for you. Do you think about marriage?

R: Sarah...I promise you that I WILL marry her...I know I will

Can anyone else imagine that feeling of security and permanence? Not to mention the intense idea of confidence in the words spoken. Some people say they hope, and wish...but I love the way that he feels in control of their relationship and everything is MUTUAL. It means nothing to nobody if it's a one sided ordeal..but I don't doubt that it would happen. He's the type of guy who would give her the world...

I'm almost positive he will.