If Paradise Called, I'd Rather Be Here (Damn...that's a good one- thanks)

Alex and I had an extremely early night last night. We went to sleep at 9:00pm...um...yeah. I don't know how to rid myself of these dreams either. I'm going to stop telling Alex that's for sure cause it just makes me look dramatic or something ya know. But I dreamt that I left his room in the barrecks and when I was on my way back, I started running- except I ran into someone else's room...? I looked around and heard voices so I headed for the door yelling, "woops wrong room! sorry!"
After that it kinda jumped to my living room couch at home with Alex questioning me,

"Are you comfortable in this relationship (yes) "
"Do you like being with me (of course) "
"Maybe if you didn't blab so much about nothing, it would benefit you ( blab? what kinda word is that?) "
"I think I'm going to need a couple weeks to think..."
"Maybe we should take a break"

Ugh! I woke up with that same feeling in the pit of my stomach making it's way up to my heart. I need to stop fearing that it's not going to work out and then hopefully my dreams will go away. I can't imagine though what I would do if that really did happen. I'm not going to go crazy but, surely I would be upset. I'm not with him just for fun, though that is certainly what I had hoped for it to be. I thought in the beginning that maybe it would be something casual- despite my wishes agianst it. I want a serious relationship but I expect less of that from guys. I don't even know what my own boyfriend wants...?

How do you think that feels?

(we aren't fighting or anything, and things are good...i'm just upset that i cant figure things out when and how i want to...thats the pushy/selfish side of me)