"I don't want to fall to peices

I just want to sit and

Stare at you...

I don't want to talk about it

And I don't want to conversation

I just want to cry in front of you....

I don't want to talk about it

Cause I'm in love with you..."



There you have it...thats all I want and that's all I feel. Somehow I've made these signs that scream out to everyone,

"BLAME ME EVEN THOUGH I DIDN'T DO IT"

"PUNISH ME FOR TELLING THE ABSOLUTE TRUTH"

Yeah that's cool, way to make me feel great about the change I've done and nobody else notices. Life couldn't possibly get any worse:

*Nobody

*Too much Math

*All this goodness and nobody to give it to

I don't know what to do when I try and look into the future and I see nothing but dread...I don't want to think any further without that person there.

On a different note...My neck is killing me. I'm worried and I'm afraid I'll have to go to the doctor next week. I iced it last night but I've never felt pain such as this before in my life. It's hard to turn, sometimes talk and look around.

Sometimes I think If I didn't have BAD LUCK I'd have no luck at all huh?