Sarah, Sarah, Sarah...

Don't you see what is happening?  Your here in Jacksonville listening to words from someone who could probably care less about whethor or not your around. 

It was so important to me and I expressed the need to talk, but I guess that was where I went wrong.  Maybe I should have not cared or not even answered?  It wouldn't matter anyways because it's not like I was that good enough to be called anyways.  But I don't want to play games and wish and try different things to make him come around. 

In my mind I don't see a drive that far at all.... I see a way out of calling me to spend time with someone else...?  Thats the only thing I can think about...and it wouldn't be so far fetched though.  It would explain why none of my calls were answered and why he didn't bother to call me back or answer me this morning.

I'm not going to be played by someone like him.  I can't do it and I feel like this is what he wants so he can get me back? I don't know what to think...but its never good thoughts.  I should have NEVER told him how I felt...never.  It only makes me look vulnderable and stupid because those feelings are not on his side otherwise he would have said something and would not have left me waiting in the dark for an absolution that would never come.