I almost believed HIM. Amidst all the anger and screaming, I almost fell for those comments that only tried to bring me down and throw HIM up. I think HE said it to show light on his goodness that I supposedly "ignore" and to expose what my past meant to HIM.

"He used you"
"He didn't care about you"

I thought about it hard after that. It seems like useless words spit out in the heat of the moment but they hit hard. I thought about if he used me, then he would have kept me and took all I had. But there were several instances where he could have chosen to lose it all if not for my clever speeches and persistant emotions. If there was no care in his heart, why then did he spend an hour (when we were dead tired at 2:00am) to lecture me on why I shouldn't do the things I was doing and how it could deeply affect my life. Why would he also take the time to extend his discomfort to Jessica for involving me in such delinquincy..? Seems like something I would surely look over if I cared little for a person.
And now the calls are starting to add up. Once here, two times there...
Why call when your so far away and the likely hood of reuniting seems next to never.

Then I remembered HIS words so cruel and tormenting, and I knew that they were wrong. It felt good to listen to that voice and be soothed to comfort knowing that he DOES care and I shouldn't be listening to anyone-
Because in all reality nobody saw what I saw
Nobody felt what I felt
And there isn't one person that can make claims or judgements on my experiences to the extent of being affected. Shame on him for going to that insecure level in attempts to push me his way.