After so long, I'm starting to believe that this infinite agony and I are truly meant to be;therefore, the wishes can keep coming and I might as well accept the beautifully horrific fact that my world and dreams revolve around that existence...
But it can never put an end to it all;you who I cleverly pretend to ignore but secretly love to adore.

Nah...
I can keep kissing the palms of my hands with a wish as I throw them up on the ceiling of my car and pass through a yellow light- But nobody hears my plea nor do they care to listen for it.
Doesn't matter how many dandelion petals I blow away to the wind with only one try- It isn't as though they fly away in search of gaining my loss.
Crazy notion of mine, to think the favor would be completed after all I've done...

But knowing the true person you are, I only pretend to not notice for your sake. And seemingly fabricate a love for you;
who I deeply and sencerely abhor.

I can see where this is going...
Another wasted year of my fucking life spent writing endlessly of
BULLSHIT
about a subject that
NO LONGER
pertains to me
Until finally I'm reunited with the
PROBLEM
and laugh at how foolish my
FEEBLE
mind really was.