What a day.
Work was long but I hadn't the slightest distraction as mentioned in the above poem, until right before I left. What kind of loser comes in to work on their day off? He wears the same stuff over agian...
He's clearly not for me. Although the feeling I got that ran through my entire body told me otherwise, eh- that's just a minor detail sent from my heart that I'll take no notice of...

Tomorrow I'm going to do something to my hair, I need a change to make myself feel better so I figured a 1:00pm appointment at Salon Javi would help. I think I'm going to start treating myself and possibly even APPRECIATING myself...wow now there's a concept! Chris (J's best friend whom he confides in) and I believe that I'm beautiful and it's about time we started acknowledging it. He's a sweet man, always a sucker for heartbreakers but I hope the one he's got does him good. He's the only one who ever takes notice in my appearance, and he's the single guy working with me that will gently compliment opposed to,
"Damn girl look at that ass!" or "Mmmm looking fine today". In my opinion there isn't anything worse than a man who can't express himself in a polite, decent manner. I guess that's just how things go, but I have never heard anything so pigheaded come out of Chris's mouth before. It's constantly, "You look beautiful" or "You look especially nice today". C'mon that's what I want to hear and I never got that from Jason. He said stuff about my "ridiculously gorgous eyes" and my smile...but he didn't take notice on my dress or hair.
When will I find someone to appreciate the little things that make up who I am?
I wish Jason would...why did I have to see his face today?
Why? My night would have been marvelous without that picture that remains on the back of my eye lids everytime I blink.
Give me a couple more days, I'm already finding a lot that I hate about him.