I counted 20 steps
in his walk as he
carried me, wrapped tightly within
my blankets;
From my bed to the living room couch.

I heard every pitch and tone in his voice;
Took note of the smile and slight
Enthusiasm as he griped my hips in affection
and went in for my lips.
"Sarah, this is where we had our first kiss"

"It took you all night to get
the nerve to kiss me"
I watched his cheecks turn pink and
took a mental picture in my mind of his
shy smirk, spreading slowly to a broad smile,
developing into a quiet giggle...

We lay there on that couch
The same couch we've been tainting for
two weeks too long.
I wondered to myself if we should
go back in my bed.
No, there's memories lingering within the pillow cases
and lying on the window sill.

I peeked through the window and considered
stepping outside in hopes of being free
of all the images rushing upon me.
I changed my mind at the sight of the two chairs
facing eachother, where we sat and watched the stars
and I rested my feet in his lap.
Agian I was smothered in happiness

Gazing into his blue eyes I know
in my heart that I've gone too
deep too soon.
Agian...
I worry about the places we go
and things you say that
stain the date and mood.
I fear this road that I've been
down many times before now.

Once I give in to the comfort;
The happiness that you've been
driving me towards...
I'm put on cruise control, being
restrained from anything further

Sometimes I wish upon myself
a cold heart, just for instances
like this one.
So that I won't give in to the
inevitable feeling of content
Too soon