Why Are You Hesitating? Why Do You Keep Me Waiting?

As of now, I can say I have it under control. Of course I do, because nothing is going wrong to make me feel like I've gone too far with myself. Tonight, at 9:41pm I can say that I'm not dedicating my heart to the idea of us, nor am I over imagining a life with him.

But what about tomorrow? Suppose he changes his mind...
Pretend that something so moving occured this afternoon between him and another, and he's now left with a different mindset in regards to my chances.
Suppose I'm nothing....

Then, will I have everything so "under control"?


[long day at work tonight!!...INTERESTING weekend...dan's show was good....got wasted....GOOD...spent too much money...got some cute bathing suites...cute sweaters...got confused about jer...thought about jer...wished he was here...ate too much food....got a little bit of HW done...worked...life is great?]