When Your Not Here- It's Hard To Pretend...

That I could use this as a take it or leave it situation.

Embarassing could be best described as I remember back to the heated moments where I told myself,
"This is under my control"

And it is, until we're done and your ready to leave me. Then I lose my grip when the doors shuts with you behind it, and I'm sitting on my bed wishing that there was still the newness of the relationship, while your driving and the distance between us only grows.

Take me back to the seasons before this one so that I might make the alterations and manipulate the situations to where you'd have fallen deeper in love me to the point of no return. That way the bruises on your heart wouldn't seem so tender, and we could both have

What we wanted.