If You Walk Out On Me- I'm Walking After You

It's tough when you start talking to someone new. I think one of the hardest things is deciphering whethor nor this situation your placed in is a product of lonliness or reason...?

I can't tell today if I want someone to want me, because nobody else worthwhile does. That's a tough thing to grasp because it involves being completely honest to yourself. Me...? Well I've simply been ignoring the question or switching the thoughts in my head when it does arise.

I won't deny that there's doubt in my heart in regards to seeing this boy of the week farther into more weeks that turn to months...?
Confusion deriving from the fact that this could be different. And typically any relationship that stands for change out of my normality of love-
I'm thinkin' no way. But why? Why when every other guy I've dated wasn't right for me. I can't date the guys I want because they don't have the same morals and views as I do. Those guys who generally don't fit into the category I'm accustomed to, could be the greatest relationship of my life. (Jeremy is the exception b/c it was forced)

I'm going to say that I don't think you should convince yourself or write about these things if you meet someone because your just supposed to know. But what about my junior year with Dan? I thought I liked him and then I knew I didn't and then I totally did. There was so much doubt but in the end it seemed that I fell more for him than he did me.
So am I supposed to think that maybe this could be another one of those situations?

I'm too weighed down by school to get involved with a superficial jerk who is going to play games. I just think that if I were to date this one, there wouldn't be much stress or worrying about what's going to happen-
I could ask instead of wonder (yeah I know...crazy!)