Treading Water

Not going to make it a habit, but I guess I'm going to actually go somewhere tonight. I just can't sit in that room for a second without suffocating in despair. I was good last night(after one mishap but I recovered like no other!) so I don't want to ruin my positive streak.

It was like a Sunday sermon. Only not too christian like, and the lesson was discovered after the sin.

I was so into it at first, and I was under the impression that I could honestly be in that room and give as much, if not more, than I was getting. The getting was great and then it's the fact that I have to do to another person, that is the opposite of what I want. I'm ashamed

Well "Never Agian" is the attitude we left the room with and even though that's what came out our mouths and hearts...I think that if given the opportunity agian he'd seriously consider and may not decline. Might take some swindeling and provacative suggestions, but I'm confident I can do it. (Mark my words I won't)