Broken Relationships and Rejection...

do you believe that the above statements were mentioned at church tonight?

I think it was solely for the purpose of making the healing process extremely difficult. Is it not ironic how when two people split- their entire environment becomes a bitter reminder of the past?
Suddenly, all those inside jokes,songs,places, and connections that brought the two of you together that were never really emphasized are now right up in your face.

Went out to lunch yesterday with the cousins and ate at David's restaurant where he and all his friends work. Our server was cute enough to look twice at and I expressed that with racy comments and a smile.

David: "Sarah, this is ALEX, alex this is sarah"
(big sigh, long eyelid blink)
Me: "So nice to meet you...alex!"

What are the odds?

I'm not mentally ready to be talking to someone else or even involving myself with anyone. And I am...everyday. How is it that men always come into my life regardless of my present situation? I was totally excited about not meeting anyone or being interested in someone particular...but it seems I'm in a trap. I enjoy talking to Mike a lot, but I know what type of person he is. I can't be driving to Orlando every weekend for nothing. It's really bad timing, and he doesn't even know what he wants. <---red flag for sure!!

Christmas? What? Where? I don't feel it in my heart this year, I don't get that feeling when I walk downtown with the crisp wind in my face as I stare at the lights on shops. That's by far the most gleeful (for lack of better, or less corny words...!!) part of Christmas for me. To see Christmas not only a private ritual amongst families nation wide, but a community thing that generally brightens the faces of many.
I don't feel it this year, I think I'm taking on the role of Scrooge this year? I don't mean to be