Don't Mind Me If I Start That Trashy Talk-

The phone calls and text messages...don't end. I haven't gotten off the phone with him once, without the reassurance of the next time I will talk to him <---and it's never very long between the calls.

Don't misconstrue(sp?) the above statements and think that I'm overwhelmed to a point of dissatisfaction. Because I'm not. The whole situation gives me somewhat of a "comfort zone" type feeling (term credited to Big T). It makes me happy to think that someone, though very far away, is constantly thinking of me. I will admit with a little blushing that I'm the type of person now who feels that long distance is...almost wasteful. (Be wary of my "almost" because there are no doubt certain exceptions) So if I, being a hopeless romantic, find long distance love to be silly...what does that say about Mike who incessantly keeps in touch?

I'm not trying to weed out little signs and twist them into some plot of destiny...I just think that his desire to keep me in his life and plan on me isn't something to ignore.

Even if we were completely honest with eachother, I wouldn't know what to say about what I wanted from him. There isn't anything more right now that I want (except maybe an Abercrombie shopping spree) than to be with someone knowing that it's going somewhere. How do people find that? How do you know that the person your with will be on the same page as you...forever? I'm not looking for forever (could that be a lie told out of embarassment??), but it would be nice to find something a little more than a few dates.

Hey I even answered his call last night when I was out...weird! I only answer calls from guys that I really like- otherwise it's nothin' but the "silent" key on your ass. He ought to feel special