Ughh....last night it hit me when Alex was rubbing my leg and I was squirming to pull them both together before his hand reached the spot....

My second one.

What am I considered like a real woman now? My best friend gets them like she gets her period which I feel bad for her in that respect. Dammit...but another one? Now I'm going to have to go to the store and look like a fucking scum bag while I check out and pretend to be on the phone saying, "How is it? Well don't worry sweety I got the stuff and I'll be there in like 20 minutes"

Then I'll smile and use words like, "poor girl" or "I feel so bad for her"

The first time this happened was probably in December and it was HELL. I remember laying there after using the "medicine" thinking that it was all going to drip out of me while I slept. Oh my gosh I don't even want to think about it, and then there's the awful possibility that it WONT work and I'll have to make an apt. and get something expensive to cure this disgusting "problem".

The more I grow up and make observations, the more I have come to realize that women most definatly have it rough!

I was up so late last night. Alex's loan went through so instead of me taking him to Carrabbas he wants to do the opposite! I think? It was a hazy conversation and I'll ask questions later but It's lookin good for me. We are probably gonna go this weekend in Gainesville....
I'm gonna work on Saturday morning to get some work done and some cash flow.

CASH FLOW?

I'm suprised I can still spell or even remember the word! It's been so long since I have honestly worked....oh well I'm kinda complaining but soon enough I'll get a job agian.

Hopefully the weekend will bring nice weather and we can go to the lakehouse...that would be a nice, calm, kinda romantic day. Alex is switching to "mid check" meaning he works from 10:00pm to 6:00am. Better than what he does now cause we hardly have any time to DO anything. So when I get out of class and through with everything which would be around 2 or 3...then we can hang out. I'm glad for that and I can also get a really good night's rest. I'm about to head into math in a couple minutes...but I'm running on maybe 3 hours of sleep.
WISH ME LUCK TODAY- I'VE GOT MUCH TO DO