Whoa whoa whoa...slow down. Darling all dreams aside- whose right is it to use "love" and "sarah" in the same sentence in regards to my posessions?! How scary to read someone comparing the best thing in the world to something I have!

But who knows if I really even have or if it's just my imagination...?

Maybe all this relationship is, is just FUN for him and something more to me. Key word here being, "Navy Boy"...and the only thing that pops into my head is a 6 year committment to too many places and possibly the girls that live there. One can only hope for the sense a man has that he can be committment free of a girl and still have fun. I'd be totally fine just hanging out with him as beneficial friends and he could have others on the side (hold on let me read that agian...ok I changed my mind-no I wouldn't)
So since he isn't, doesn't that mean something good for me? He could have all the girls he wants but...he isn't?

It's a good possibility that all of that up there was written because I'm...insane.

Ok so I totally went shopping today and I did really good. Three dresses that can be either casual or VERY dressy. And the best part about these originally hundred somethin dollar dresses was...I got them ridiculously cheap. They were like over 100 dollars each and I definatly got them for like 20 dollars! It was fate how that one day sale and I just so happened to meet!

YEAUH!

And I picked up a pair of DKNY sun glasses that are awesome. Nothin like my BCBG ones though... :(:( (Damn ocean waves)

Sounds like I'm a big name brand person huh? Well I definatly am...I can't swallow the idea of buying something that isn't known. Incredibly, SHALLOW I know but atleast I can admit it right? Like I loooove going thrift store shopping, it's like a hobby, but I won't buy anything unless it's a name brand. But atleast I go thrifting!!! It's a form of redeeming my superficiality (is that a word?).

I want to look really sweet when I got to Alex's tonight. The last time I wore a dress he was dramatically impressed! And this one is way way nicer. The material on two of them is silk and this really sheer material, and the Ralph Lauren one is cotton but it has that sheer material as the outer layer too. Really cute, I'll have to take pictures.

Anyways...I made the silly mistake of responding to Jeremy's text message. Next thing I know he's bragging about how he just gave all his [ugly] clothes to goodwill and bought a whole new wardrobe. Which indirectly points to how well this new job of his is going...not to mention he's going to Hallowscream and him and his little church slut are staying in the Hyatt...
(Look that doesn't impress me cause I was hotel jaded by Jim who took us to much more upscale places than the fucking HYATT! )
And the whole dissing on military salary is just retarded...not to mention 5th grade behavior. Personally there was a time when I wanted to be with someone for money and materialistic things, but I'm not that kind of girl (for now).
Alex is great and I admire his committment to the Navy
Putting down those in the military is just stupid and making a weak attempt at trying to make me look at what I could have had...
It never appealed to me since the Ale House....or the hampton inn.
Oh shoot, I forgot he reads this from time to time....my bad


If you want to know my opinion on it, if one has so much and is so happy with everything, boasting is useless and just proves that there is truly something missing in your heart. And I think that some people don't even realize it, but there most certainly must be something worth being spiteful over so it's a priority to augment what really isn't there.
Interesting huh?