I suppose it's too difficult to decipher between the two. One being so superficial and cliche, and the other proving to be so different. Maybe not YET proving but definatly looking in the opposite direction of "fake".

Practice was okay...I learned some more cheers and then we stunted, wait did I say we? Them I mean...excluding me. I just stood on the side of my group and spotted (which means nothin). I feel like my back is prohibiting me from so much. It's fucking retarded, how can I do anything, contribute anything to a team without stunting???? COLLEGIATE level not to mention!

I suppose I will just get over it and if they drop me they drop me right? (WRONG- I'll feel like the biggest fucking idiot in the world)

I miss Alex and all I thought about today was him. Can you keep a secret? I really don't want anyone to know, but today, as I was thinking about all the great aspects about him and the depths of my cares for him...I teared up. I know it's ludacris! I don't know what to do with my emotions...

get over it sarah