I believe there are good days...and then there are certainly bad days!

Not to say that yesterday was a seriously bad day, but it wasn't anything to brag about. Me and Alex hung out and pretty much just went to sleep...? We had to get up pretty early, so I guess that's ok. Some nights the way we are together is just amazing, last night felt good but nothing spectacular. He said he was in a bad mood, but still generally sweet and fun. But when he's in a good mood I can definatly tell.
We fell asleep holding hands with his head nestled deeply into my neck; My hand up over my head which fell conveinantly into his hair.

Interesting how people can presume to try and understand one another. And they use their inclinations as a license to inflict emotional joy or pain! Keep in mind that this is a world where what we want is only what we want until it's ours....(compliments of those one guys who sing that one song)

Ummm....class in 30 minutes. Presentation in about 45 minutes...
Yeah how about I barely understand the topic in which I am arguing. EUTHANASIA WHAT? Some kinda topic that I somewhat have to AGREE with rather than OPPOSE which is the stand I am presently taking. My logic and my arguement is full of traps and the second I get up there Alteri is going to tear me apart, along with the other side of the arguement. Oh well I gave a really good try and I also have three other girls who are in the same boat as me. DOIN' GOOD!

So Alex (yeah I know im goin back to that silly subject agian...) definatly shows the signs I want to see in a GOOD relationship. Especially at the early hours of the morning...
HE'S READY TO GO! If I were to roll over and just so happen to be NAKED, there wouldn't be any hesitation. I wake up to his hands in my pants and his breath on my neck. Looking good from my angle...
I cant wait to lose the flow this month so I can atleast have some ::fun::
It's been a little over a month so I think I can let something happen...but I'm gonna wait longer for sex. We both want it, and think about it, and talk about it...but why give in so easily and so early. I don't want to be ripped of my pride and respect I deserve. Atleast give me the gift of a secure relationship before I give all of myself, the second we have sex is the second I fall in love. No joke...it's disgusting isn't it? What is wrong with me? I shouldn't fall in love with a person I have sex with...or should I? Is that right, I mean I hear about people falling in love within even a shorter time, and sometimes before they even FORMALLY meet. So why should I be ashamed like I am? Sometimes when I look at him and feel the way that I do, I try and push it away because I fear the most he doesn't look at me the same. I worry he's in the Navy just lookin to pass the time he's got left here. I don't know how to deal with it, but I do know how easy it would be if everything was mutual.
EVERYTHING...

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