"That's A Part Of Growing Up..."

Is that right? Well if that's true then I guess what it comes down to is my desire to stay young. Young enough to live at home with mom while never crossing the boundary of "acceptable" over to "still living at home with mom". But I've done it now, I'm out and about the East Coast and going back seems out of the question not to mention a suicide attempt on my reputation. Those who said I'd be back would have a field day with my failure and I'd just look like an ignorant circus animal while trying to come up with some extravagant answers to the probing questions and insults.

I think going back would feel like entering back into a deep conversation that started 18 years ago, and I've missed an important 8 months. Seems trivial but subjects change on the hour and how I to know what was last and now first? How can I be sure I'm even the relevant topic I once was?



Everyone left except stupid me! There's no classes on Thursday and most people generally don't take Friday classes so I'm almost all alone. I wish I could go to Gainesville early and just freaking relax...I wish I could skip class on Friday but that's impossible. I have too much to turn in and a presentation on some college tuition policy bull shit that won't even pass.

But, after that class I'm going to Daytona Beach for a doctor's apt.( yeah what the fuck...I know) and then to Gainesville. It's a good possibility that I already mentioned I'm going to Gator Growl ("only the biggest pep rally in the United States...or the state") and then we have box tickets to the gator game.

Still pondering confessions to YOURS TRULY. I talk to the only person that knows me but my troubles with a boyfriend get lost in between his pleasures with his girlfriend...so I don't know how reliable that source is as of now. I think I need new friends