I'll Remember You...Will You Remember Me Too?

I had another breakdown...I think that's what it was. I'm having some trouble with comparing and letting my wishes get the better of me. And then I get discouraged and so I make myself think these crazy ideas until finally I call Tiffany tearing with gasps and she convinces me I'm thinking too much. Fair enough, but still I'm depressed to find myself thinking that this isn't much on the other end when we have sex. But there it is, all I have to do is say that it's just sex and I already feel like it's meaningless.



I feel like there's too much at stake for me, deeming these fast paced emotions and high hopes I'm almost certain where this perpetual pattern leads to. But Tiffany says this one is different and I can't be the way I used to. And believe me or not, I've done many changes.


Almost over with this semester and I'll be glad to have a nice long break. I have to go home on December 10th and come back on January 5th...look how much time that is away from Alex. But oh my goodness the break...