It's Down To This- I've Got To Make This Life Make Sense...

I'm so stressed out it's disgusting. I had a nervous breakdown the other day I thought I might stop breathing for a moment. I am so worried about my classes and my grades...what am I doing? I have a C in psychology...!! I was so sure I did well on this past test and I got a fucking C. What the shit? So I have to get a fucking A on this next test in order to get a B in the class...or else I lose my scholarship.

Or...assuming I get an A to compensate for that C,then it's possible I can still hang in there. If I can get an A in my Education class then I'll be able to get a C in psychology. But still I'm going to study my ass off for this next and last test.

I have so much stress on me right now to do good in these classes. I didn't realize in the beginning of the term how important it was and now I'm trying to do better and be more focused than I was. I had the mindset from highschool when I first started and now I realize that's not the way to be. If I can take this on this semester than I think I can do it for the rest of my bachelor's degree.

Wish me luck

(Me and Alex are good...)