You Tried To Laugh But Cried Instead- Paitiently Waited To Hear The Words I Never Said:

I had to give myself one good look over anyways, so your lucky I was standing in front of that beautiful antique mirror- my restaruant didn't open for another 20 minutes anyways.

I look magnificent today...

"Yeah but how many times can you compliment yourself before growing jaded and finally realizing the cold hearted slut you are?"

That voice shook my daydreams and I recalled the cell phone reluctantly attatched to my ear. I thought of some reasons to stop you mid sentence but agian I saw the mirror.
Noticed how perfectly my black tendrils curled ; tucked behind around my ears, flowing down my shoulders. The contrast between that ebony and powder blue of my button down was astonishing and undoubtedly head turning. If I tilt my head just far enough to the right, and pull my hair over this way- I don't see the phone anymore. And I can pretend to disregard that, "I'm breaking your heart without giult filled in mine"

I do feel sorry but I can't get past the sparkle in my eyes to tell you so. I'm confident just one glance is all it takes (and it did) till its not just those eyes that will be locked onto mine.

"Just try to recreate the images and cherishable memories we made from the past!"

I don't see anything so I keep staring in conceit at my volumptious hips and the womanly cleavage spilling out of my top as I undo just one button. I'm blinded by the opportunity I'm about to encounter...but the phone which leads to the existence trailing behind the saddening idea that you can't go as quickly as I wish soon, reminds me that it won't be long before I'm back in the arms I ran away from.

"Don't you see I just want to love you?"
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We went to lunch yesterday and then to a movie- we saw "Saw" <---- CRAZY! I'm a scary movie critic and I almost always think it's stupid, but this was a really good movie. We went back to Base after that and I hung out for a little bit before going to the dorm. We were laying down and I swear to you I had to cover my mouth for fear of it just spilling out! I was mid sentence having to stop myself because that's not something you have much control over. Can you imagine how retarded I would sound if I was like, "Yeah tomorrow I have to do a lot of studying for my I LOVE YOU test, and then I'm going to go vote and start on YOU AND ME TOGETHER FOREVER...." Gosh, how nuts do you think that would sound. But honestly it was on the tip of my toungue and all I had to do was open my mouth. I wouldn't say the whole together forever thing, that was just for exaggeration purposes, but I wanted to say that I loved him. How big of a wimp am I? I throw out signs that I'm not in love though, so maybe he's taken back. Like the other day we were talking about how psycho girls get when they are in love and guys don't want them back,and when someone leaves another person how crazy sad they are. So I said, "Yeah I'm kinda glad that I've never fallen in love cause I don't want to deal with that, and I kinda don't want to fall in love just for those reasons" But any rational being can testify that it's not a pick and choose conveinant type thing.