This is definatly proving to be interesting. I mean we can't go on with this competing frame of mind. Neither one of us really care but it's the point of trying I suppose. Like who really needs those stupid comments about, "Oh i could never talk to anyone like I did with her last night" or "I was so happy and she took me out" as if to say that I never did anything so nice before. Maybe it's just me but I can feel his efforts to try to make me jealous, it's aggravating only because I know what his intentions are. Let me ask you this:
Do you think I'd be moving on if I was jealous? To have jealousy is to have care within your heart, none of these I have in the aspect that I once did.
I'm really excited myself cause ya know it isn't as though I'm sitting alone in my dorm everyday. He's coming over to "watch a movie" but you know that always turns into an hour and a half of conversation. He's such a contradicting little shit, but that's okay, cause one glance in those eyes and all is at perfection for me. I don't want anything substantial, nor am I looking for it, but someone to hang out with and think is attractive is always fun.
Gavin and I have been really getting closer, just with our conversations/hopes/and goals. I really feel a lot better about it than I ever have. I think there's a real purpose behind us and everything we've gone through is proof. Though the both of us have done our share of developing and experiencing with other people, somehow we always manage to go back to eachother. I know if he lived here we'd be together, there's too much history and across the miles bonding to deny that we just might belong together. I'm interested to see what time will bring me.