Is Beauty Honestly Only Skin Deep...?

Or is it possible that the statement was invented to protect the egos of the unfortunately, irreversibly ugly. If there is one thing that I'm learning in all this college stuff is the ability to DOUBT. What is it about women and the word beautiful? Who brainwashed the entire female population into thinking that in order to actually be the word we first have to hear it from the deceiving lips of a man? (I beg your pardon if I'm putting those in a majority that don't belong) Look over here from this angle, I can think I'm pretty all I want to! I can be conceited and under the impression that I'm as perfect as I will ever be. But what good do those do without some sort of reinforcement of the same idea from someone else?
It's similar to thinking down on yourself until too many people truthfully describe your otherwise. But I don't seem to be having either of those problems since I rarely get cut down or put up. (As much as I want to cheat my way out of this one...mommy and daddy don't count)

So what am I just a neutral type girl now? I'm not revolting enough to point out, but my looks don't involve head turns so I needn't any self-gratifying words?

It's all in who you date. Last year I was better than Britney, the year before that I was "working on" an abercrombie model look, now I'm just another face in the crowd. It's not just the compliments of how great I look or how blue my eyes are, it's the domino effect behind the compliment. Someone had to first notice, appreciate, think, word it in their head so not to look like a fool, then finally take the courage in their heart to say it aloud. So much more goes into such phrases that perhaps may be taken for granted.

(Call me crazy now but you'll be thinking about it the next time someone calls you beautiful for the first time)