Waited Too Long For That...

Oh my cock...oh my cock...

I figured as of now with the ways things are going I had to take control of the situation if I wanted anything remotely MAGICAL to happen- so I I took matters into my own hands and got my own orgasm.

Noo...I wasn't alone in the act, I just mean I did all the work- which might I add is very rare for me since I'm so selfish in regards to sex. (Kinda-Not really)

Well we talked a lot last night and that was good, we had a good night all in all. I met him at the front gate as usual last night and he got out of the car, and he chased me around the car before finally grabbing me into a huge hug. I missed him so much it was so great to hear his voice in my ear and his hands on my legs.

A: I waited all night to do this (hands squeezing my legs)

He is like, the best boyfriend I have ever had in my life. So much more than anyone just because of the way he makes me feel and what he brings out in me. I would do anything, and I mean anything just to spend time with him. Take a look at the sacrifices I am making to spend what time we do! Nobody else could make me stay up late just for a few hours when I have to get up early as fuck.

I'm so falling for him and my only problem is that I don't want to go down alone. It also occured to me that sometimes I wish I never met Alex. Not because I don't like him because it's apparent I'm more than liking him...but because I'm so scared of everything that goes on between us. I feel so worried that I'm gonna "fall in love and find my heart face down"...it's the hugest thing to me. I am soo blessed and so lucky to have Alex but at the same time I'm so afraid that I'll fall in love and lose it all.

Let's never repeat this stupidity for my reputation's sake. Ofcourse I'm a girl and so I think of my boyfriend like that, but c'mon sarah...get over it

School is fucking bull shit. I worked so damn hard for all these due dates and assignments that I had these past 3 days and it turned to shit. I don't know what happened...