Went to the beach last night with Danielle and Alex...

I'm really worried about this whole Alex thing but I guess I shouldn't think about anything but making myself happy for the time I can...right? I just don't want to fall hard on my ass...

Who knows what will happen anyways.

Going home this weekend to an empty house...mom and I were supposed to go to dinner but we don't talk much anymore. Haven't spoken to her decently since I was home. She's going out of town and I have to watch the dog. Sunday morning I'm leaving there real quick though and heading to Gainesville for lunch and visit with the Family...

I'm really upset about a lot of things (mom, school, friends, boyfriend, my life here in jacksonville) I want the best out of everything but fear rules my life and the insceurities seem to bring me down regardless. I need to try and do things differently...think positively and worry less. Easier said than done.

Ew! My air went out last night when I got back home...oh my gosh I was sooo hot while sleeping. It reminds me of the hurricane and how we slept sticky and gross! Ugh...
Hopefully someone will be in today or tomorrow (better be ice cold by sunday when I get back)