It's ok...I know what your thinking. I went through it myself not so long ago, and I've got to say,

Ignorance is BLISS

Right? The idea of a mystery; what you don't know is so nervewracking. Like whatever I say means nothing due to mistrust, but really you have no idea. So you were better off never knowing whose hat it was...but I don't really care! Afterall, it's just a hat and it was just one night...
(too bad my fun came 15 minutes before you showed up...go take a shower asshole)

So moving on...

After a week, I've gotten almost everything I have wished for. The second I laid eyes on his I knew that there was something more than just time spent. I've never in my life felt that way, and it's funny because I thought I liked Jason. Jason never showed me anything that Alex does. I can't even think of one time I spent with Jason and felt complete affection and joy radiating from his body. He just wanted someone...
Alex is different. Nothing goes further than innocent and that's the way it will be for a long time.

FINALLY!

A boyfriend worth having! I couldn't even believe it when he said he wanted to be with me...I laughed and then realized he wasn't laughing. Woops...
So it feels good to be taken by someone who wants you and appreciates you. And what's even better is everything is mutaul if not more on my part. I told him I worried though about getting so close to someone in the Navy. He's gonna leave in a year and 8 months...and then what.
Not saying it would be me but he said he wanted someone to be waiting for him when he got back. Now that I'm thinking about it, I should have gotten more detail on this because I'm sitting here wondering if this relationship is for entertianment's sake or a real journey?

Gotta go back to Jax
Awww another long ride with fate <--- maybe he can convince me to believe in it