This will be brief...

Discovered last night as we were heading to Jacksonville that my dorm didn't actually open till TODAY....so I stayed with Alex and we watched a movie and went to sleep early. I've yet to have a good night's rest still, ever since I met him I feel so drained. And my eating habits are so poor! I haven't eaten a real meal since Monday almost. I just don't seem to have time and when I do it's barely anything that I put in my mouth.
Gainesville was fun, I spent most of it with Alex and Dan which was very, icredibly entertaining.

I am about to go to the Chiropracter...then HW and sleep! I hate to not see Alex tonight but maybe a break is good. Not that I want one or that I get the feeling he does...I just think they are good for two people just starting out. Right...?

Later on in the day:

Did some running around...can't seem to find my watch. Alex told me that he sold it (yeah ok) but I really think I left it on the sink DAMMIT. I love that watch, everyone wants to talk to me when they see it!

So today was very emotional!! Me and my mother really got into it...I'm not going to talk to her for a couple of days. Maybe not until Friday or something when I HAVE to see her. After that thing I was like, totally ruined for the rest of the afternoon. I had to really focus on not crying in the chiropracter's office today...I don't even really understand WHY I was so upset. I think it was a combination of disgust and worry/want. I kept thinking about too many things at once and I was slipping over the edge.

I called Alex while I was getting tortured with these electro patch thingies...? He made me laugh...such a dork. I know it's a huge contradiction on my part, but I can't do anything about the way I feel and what I know is right. I haven't been so sure of myself in my life...

I used to think I knew what I was doing and who it was with, but this is soooooo different. Before there was always something, a little bit of this to hold me back and a little bit of that to make him imperfect. But the first time we hung out we were writing in the sand and the 4rth thing I wrote was

"perfect"

Kinda being silly but kinda knowing that he was a great person, but now it's like for real. We were listening to the radio last night in the car and Hoobastank's "reason" came on and him being the dork he was starting to sing thinking he knew the song. The first line is really 'I'm not a perfect person' lol, he squeezed my hand and looked at me and sang out "I found the perfect person!!!!!"

Oh my...he's just like me. A TOTAL DORK. We dance like idiots, and sing like we know the words(but we dont), trip eachother, forever wrestling and "throwin down"...obviously it's a very non serious thing here. After he asked me out we had a really serious conversation about a lot of stuff...so it's not always a joke which is very good. And amidst all of that he's still sweet.

Where has he been all my life?