I tried to cry my way out of it, I tried to make it seem as though it wasn't. But it definatly is and I'd hate to hold back on something so promising.

We talked today and it was a good conversation ranging from the car thing, jokes, missing eachother, more jokes, and then who was sweeter. Yeah the debate that started all this indescribably elation. Who was in fact sweeter to whom? I knew right away it was him, because I just accept the attention and allow it while sometimes showing it.

But fear holds me back so I know for a fact I could be more sweet if the inhibitions were taken from me. Anyways...he wanted me to say something really nice that he hasn't heard before but I couldn't think of anything that was nice enough yet still catious on my part. He was disapointed and broke out with,

"Well Sarah, I haven't liked anyone like I like you neither have I felt this way in the longest time"

From what I've gathered he's been in one relationship that could be labeled serious and I'm guessing the rest were just kinda, "eh". But I could be so wrong but I know that his serious one was way before he was in the Navy (which was about a year ago and then some months...right?) So he's not been in a relationship. Maybe he's just influenced by his friends, which by the way are either married or engaged. Maybe he just wants something consistent too...? Regardless of that obvious factor, I don't think he'd settle for less in something like a relationship. He's a great guy and I know I'm not the only one who thinks so or who can appreciate it. He can have anyone I think...

Danielle loves him. I was so glad too, they picked on me and we all had a good time. She definatly said that his pictures do not do him justice (they definatly don't) and he's so much more good looking in person.

I'm just so glad we had that talk today and we usually do have great conversations but I just needed to hear something like that so much. I needed somethin like that to cling on to while I fall asleep. We are meeting up in Gainesville on Saturday and I think I'll give up a little bit of myself now. Not too much cause I don't want to get hurt, but I'll start to "unravel" I guess is the appropriate word for it. Nothing sexual at all, just letting him see more of who I am ya know? I'm afraid to open up and trust someone with that but we shall see.